“I mean our body is us, so of course it influences our happiness based on how comfortable we are in our environment.”
Above is a direct quote from one of my closest and most treasured friends. She moved back into college today and we still managed to hold a conversation despite the hectic-ness that she was probably experiencing. She is probably one of the few people in my life who is the near-perfect example of a friendship that is both give and take equally. For a while, I neither thought that was possible nor even in the cards for me. But after five years of friendship with her, she has proven me otherwise.
I have known her since freshman year of high school and to this day, we still do not know how we became friends or how we are still friends. And if that wasn’t crazy enough, our parents and pretty much everyone around us pretty much wonder how we became the close and true friends we are today. And I think that is the beauty of our friendship. Sure, we still bring up how we don’t know the roots of our friendship, but that has never mattered. It never deterred our friendship in any way and our friendship grows stronger every day. She is one of the few people that I feel the most comfortable and happy around, and that says a lot.
I have always been the person obsessed with my personal bubble. You had to be allowed into my personal bubble and even then, hugs were unheard of. And if that weren’t insane enough, I was even particular about the circles of friendship and acquaintance-ship and everyone was well aware of it. You kept in whichever circle I categorized you in and you never questioned it or stepped out of bounds. But she is the one person that immediately made it into the closest circle to my heart and mind without a lot of time having to pass. Our friendship escalated quickly and it is one of the most amazing friendships to have graced my life.
We got into a conversation about how weather, temperature, and our environments effect our moods, attitudes, actions, and temperaments and that above quote made me realize that she is one of the few people that I feel
comfortable completely comfortable around, if not the only one. I will not name a name, but you know who you are. If you ever read this entry, thank you time and time again. You are truly one of the only blessings that I am constantly reminded of in times of happiness. Thank you, I love you to death. Kill it in your sophomore year of college, we will be reunited again.
“It takes 21 days to create a habit.”
The above quote was said by my personal trainer that I had the fortunate opportunity to work with during a free session that came with my new gym membership. I never thought that I would ever have a gym membership, but here I am about 3 months into my membership. But that is besides the point. I wanted to share this quote because it has become a motivation in this slump I have found myself in. It reminded me that everything in life takes baby steps and that I can’t feel defeated because things did not change overnight.
I always find myself telling others to take baby steps and not expect immediate satisfaction. Now it is time that I practice what I preach. With the help of this one statement, I am willing to endure slow progress and the positive and/or negative results that come with it. Keeping my word will be difficult, but now I am more than willing to embrace the task with all my heart and drop my foolish pride that demands immediate satisfaction as the only means of success.
“When one has the feeling of dislike for evil, when one feels tranquil, one finds pleasure in listening to good teachings; when one has these feelings and appreciates them, one is free of fear.”
Prologue: I started writing this post a while ago, but I never got around to finishing it because I just didn’t know how to. But now I finally got around to it and I’m okay with the conclusion and the post in general not being perfect, because any mistakes I made or rambling I had done in this post perfectly describes my condition during my freshman year.
I can’t believe that nine months have already flown by. It feels like just yesterday that it was a burning hot day and I was moving into college. But now, as if Mother Nature believes in full circle endings, I am moving out on a burning hot day.
When my elders had told me that once you graduate from high school time flies even faster and before you even know it you’ll be onto your chosen career, I should have taken those words of wisdom as a warning. I know that was one big run-on sentence, but that is how I feel. If I had, maybe I would feel less regretful about my now ending freshman year of college. Do not get me wrong, I have been blessed time and time again and reminded that I am lucky throughout this first year at college, but there is so much I still feel that I have messed up and I wish I could have that time back. It is as if every time I told myself I would study later, it was already the night before the exam. Or if I promised to meet up with friends before the semester break or if I promised to visit friends at other schools, there wasn’t enough time because of all the homework, studying, and job shifts I still had to do. It is insane just how much my responsibilities have jacked up since entering college.
High school seems like such a faraway time now even though I had only graduated about a year ago. It feels like all the memories, advice, and opinions have become a thing of the past that I only reminisce about when I’m with my high school friends. And on that note, it definitely has been quite some effort keeping in touch with the high school friends and childhood friends that I care for. I never would have thought that I would have broken ties with the people I thought I had known so well and I DEFINITELY didn’t think that I would have become friends with the people that I have. It has been such an emotional journey above anything, the physical stresses seem like nothing now.
But before I truly ramble on more, I think I will sum my first year as one big learning lesson. Of course I will make tons more mistakes as I keep moving onto the next year of college, but I will not forget the ones I made in freshman year and I WILL learn from it. I will not make promises, because I am afraid to break them but I will try my very best.